the update re: not updating
I am sad.
I feel like everything is so unsatisfying, even this blog. I wonder if I should delete all of my posts and run away to Nepal.
When I was in high school people talked about going away to find themselves (I know, I know, smoke some more weed), but I really wonder where I am sometimes, and if I will always have fleeting feelings of contentment and focus.
I have made some really big plans, big decisions that now make me cringe. I am getting a major case of cold feet and I just can't figure out what it is I actually want or if I will be in the right place at the right time to find it.
I wish I didn't have to be so vague, but this is just a fake confession website. If I posted the real stuff here I would be fired, dumped, and left for dead.
It might be the lack of warmth and sunshine. I think I feel this way every winter, freak out, lose control of everything, and laugh deliriously as if nothing matters.
Maybe I should make a list of things I am thankful for.
I feel like everything is so unsatisfying, even this blog. I wonder if I should delete all of my posts and run away to Nepal.
When I was in high school people talked about going away to find themselves (I know, I know, smoke some more weed), but I really wonder where I am sometimes, and if I will always have fleeting feelings of contentment and focus.
I have made some really big plans, big decisions that now make me cringe. I am getting a major case of cold feet and I just can't figure out what it is I actually want or if I will be in the right place at the right time to find it.
I wish I didn't have to be so vague, but this is just a fake confession website. If I posted the real stuff here I would be fired, dumped, and left for dead.
It might be the lack of warmth and sunshine. I think I feel this way every winter, freak out, lose control of everything, and laugh deliriously as if nothing matters.
Maybe I should make a list of things I am thankful for.
posted by geeekgirl at 4:23 PM
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