+ confessions of a red-headed stepchild: friday confessional

Friday, August 05, 2005

friday confessional

I am going skydiving on the 20th of this month and I never thought I would be this scared. I can't even think about it without trying to convince myself that I should reconsider. I keep seeing what I expect I will see from the plane and keep feeling what I expect I will feel when it is time to jump. And I get panicky.

I have always wanted to go skydiving, but talking about doing it one day and actually doing it feel very different. So different that the core of my being and all that I value is being tossed and turned upside down as I try to think of any way I can get out of it.

Maybe once the PMS passes I won’t feel the intense desire to over analyze this anymore.